The thing is I don't like mutual friends I'm not good communicate with my friend's friends. By the way do I have friends. I don't think so, I rarely call someone a friend not because I don't think they good but I'm not a good friend to other so I don't expect to call other my friend. I only have classmate, co-worker, and acquaintance.
Since when I have this personality? And why? I'm not sure. How about you does anyone reading this know or have this kind of personality? If you do you will understand what I'm talking about it's not that you think you're special or something but it's the way it is you're just born to be that way. It's totally not that I feel I'm too good or I'm not good enough.
About love I (used to) enjoy feeling in love. I don't know how about now, the teenage year is over and there's something more to focus on than love. I think that many true love haven't met because the world design the people to have true love but not always be together. They're many condition until you decide to be with someone and even if you want to most chances are you're not together with the one you fond of.
I started to feel less love ( since when? I don't know ) and I don't know why the one we feel real is never be met? You would crush on someone and believe in yourself you will truely love that person. But chances are you wouldn't be with that person. That's when people asking where is true love? Because truely rarely met.
About marriage I see the people I know getting married it's most people dream but I wonder is it really that special? Why I don't feel that excited and special like they express? I guess I am designed to be so. Another problem is You need to call other's parent your parent in law. I don't like that I don't like being that close and calling that close to people I don't really know. I have my siblings my parents that's a wonderful things I feel I don't feel wanting to call other as close to them.
I know that there're many feeling the same way I did ( I hope I'm not alone thinking so ) How should we deal this problems? As time goes by we learned and experience it something has no shortcut. As you read till the end I feel closer with you now. We are not alone, aren't we?
Written by: Bluebirdfly
Publish by: Sabaymagazine.com
